2011-08-01 - 11:01 p.m.
i have 20 minutes until i have to go pick up jay from work...and i wont lie...things could be a whole lot better than they are.
im feeling aggrevated, alone, and nostalgic. thats a bad mix. im having thoughts about the past...the future not so much. this cant be good. but i can only go so long without the magic. without feeeeling SOMETHING. im feeling a little alone in the dark...and ive had enough of alone. i shouldnt have to feel alone anymore. it shouldnt be this hard to love me...maybe im just not good enough. i guess i never was. thats obvious. the past speaks for itself.
god i hope i feel better tomorrow.
~J
