2001-08-06 - 4:36 p.m.
guh. somedays are just worse than others. first off, i'm supposed to work 6 hours...2 half hour breaks..instead, they only have me work 5 and a half hours...one 15 minute break. bastards.
and sometimes things happen that just shatter your trust in humanity....people lie and scheme and think they can get away with it...but you always find out. and you always feel like a boob fer buyin into it. and you wonder if theres anyone you CAN trust anymore.
and all these self doubts are starting to come up...because you wonder if you're pretty enough...because sometimes a picture is worth a thousand words...and all your words are usually the wrong ones. usually. so you doubt yourself...you doubt your vixen-ness...even though you shouldnt.
but maybe it's just becaues today wasnt such a good day. maybe the whole situation will look better in the morning...maybe the gods will send the "one" to your door in the morning. maybe he's delivering the mail..maybe he's fixing the leaky bathroom faucet...and mayyybe he's lost his puppy...and needs someone to help him find it...lol. (remember when they used to use that line...with like mcgruff the crime dog...)
~J
