2001-08-12 - 9:49 a.m.
Check It out!!!!
Its almost just like Hazzard County in here. thanks heathur. once again you've outdone yourself. i just hope my Nissan Maxima is fast enough to outrun ol' Roscoe. lol.
oh man. work again today...in fact i have work all week except for tues and wed when i have school. guh. part time my ass.
and i cant shake this weird mood. i think it has to do with the fact of being soooo happy to not be in work, because as soon as i get there it goes away...but as soon as i leave, it's right back here again.
perhaps it's it's its.....guh, i dunno, i don't quite know how to put it. all i know is i like it. it seems nice to not be angry all the time anymore. although i was so used to it being that way. being angry, and jaded and vengeful. i almost feel like a person again. but it's scary too, because i know that i could end up back there at any second. because i'm not usually allowed to be happy for any significant amount of time. fate usually sees to that. and after that email from mike, which i strongly believe to be an omen of inescapable doom, i'm almost afraid to breathe. because i like feeling this way. i like being almost happy. i like things the way they are now.
~J
