2001-08-15 - 9:06 p.m.
i had this whole enrty written about mike...but it was too sad and too angry, and the words werent right.
and right now, i dont want to deal with it anymore.
right now i just want something sweet and new with no strings of the past attached to it...new. i want new strings.
and sweet...something mike had to try too hard to be. something they all had to try too hard to be.
it should be natural and just there for no good reason...just there.
i should just pop into their thoughts for no good reason...not just because they wanna get some.
i made up a list once of things i really wanted in a guy...it went something like this....
1.)someone who can honestly say "i love you"
2.)someone who thinks i'm cute in my pajamas
3.)someone who would go to disneyworld with me-a big kid at heart.
4.)someone who will wrestle with me
5.)someone who would dance with me in my living room.
6.)someone who will miss me when i'm not around.
well, its just an exerpt, but you get the idea.
somedays i wonder if he exists...someone with a heart big enough for me to live inside of...and someone big enough to live inside of mine.
~J
