2001-08-24 - 10:22 a.m.
theres as odd sense of good sadness today. i was watching ER last night and it was so sappy and good that i cried. lol. yes, i WAS that girl. i cried when the dark haired nurse went back to george clooney's house in seattle to tell him he was her soulmate and she still loved him...all after the woman who had cancer died and her husband spewed all this soulmate crap at her...it was great. and it made me think a little too.
i want a soulmate.
just the sound of the word is so warm and fuzzy...like an old sweater...i wanna be warm like that...
and they all say you'll know it when you see tham. you'll know...well, i thought i've known a lot of times. i think my soulmate radar is jammed.
because whenever i know, they dont...
whenever i feel something, they never do.
but i still want one.
i do.
no matter how many times you get hurt and tell youself "never again" "i'll never fall in love again"
its always there...
that ache for someone to understand...
for someone to curl up with..that perfect person.
that soulmate.
