2001-09-16 - 7:27 p.m.
today was weird. maybe cuz its been so long since i've had a sunday off from work. but it was nice.
today was almost good.
almost.
its just crazy because everything is so upside down right now. inner struggles and external turmoil all bubbling around in my brain.
i wanna be proactive but i want life to be normal again..i wanna know what happens in NY but at the same time i wanna watch the simpsons. and i dont know if that should make me feel bad or not but it does.
i feel like all of my problems are so insignificant...but not having the money to go to school and fighting over it with my dad ARE big problems and they're my problems...but there are so many MORE bigger problems out there now...
its weird it's like you almost lose your identity.
my non boyfriend issue is so insignificant...
does that make ME insignificant because it's important to me?
i know it must sound silly.
i know I must sound silly.
i dunno. the monotony of work and sleep is almost comforting right now. as long as there's a line at the good ol' express tobacco line at work, i dont have to think about all this.
~J
