2001-09-25 - 10:12 p.m.
went to school today for registration. i have and realized there was a slight twinge of excitement. new school, new people...NOT framingham state. and looking around atthe photos on the walls i felt almost comfortable. like i was in a place where there just might be some people who might get it. might get what i try to say.
but i'll let ya know after classes start how things really are. i'm sure the fascination will quickly fade when i'm tryin gto squeeze 16 hours of outside darkroom/studio time into my schedule of classes AND work...i will soon have no life to speak of.
not that i have much of a life now, but it's gonna get even worse.
guh.
so i dunno.
i was feelin all almost good today. the train ride in...and its like the ladt who sat next to me at south station said...the train is the best part of th eday...its where you can get some extra work done and get your head together...and the more i thought about it i realized she was right...it IS the perfect time to get your head together. it's amazing what i think about on the train. who i think about on the train.
people i keep telling myself not to think about.
but..but..there's no one else to think about...all the guys from my past are uninterresting asses...
listen to me...goin on..like i have some idea of what i'm talkin about. it makes me feel silly. that i could be so interrested in someone like this...someone so unattainable.
someone who prolly thinks i'm the silliest girl alive for even thinking it.
oh well.
there's plenty of train rides in my future to delve further into this and other inane fantasies.
"press on"
~J
