2001-12-20 - 11:00 a.m.
i can feel real life slipping away more and more as the days go by lately, and i find myself pulling into some alternate universe.
i think its because i'm so unhappy with the way real life is going right now. so i find myself zoning out constantly...trying to create my own perfect world...
i mean, there's nothing here for me right now. theres just this awful routine...day in and day out...nothing new, no one new...only one small crisis after another...the car wont start, work sux, i have no money, the heat doesnt work right and the landlord doesnt seem to think its a very big problem...and i want it to get fixed but i dont wanna cause too much of an uproar because he could just tell us that if we dont like the way he does things we can leave, and we have no place else to go and no money to get there if that happens...the other morning i discovered that the cat had not only destroyed my cashmiere sweater but eaten a hole in my favorite sweater as well...*sigh* the list goes on and on.
an dits christmas time again...and once again i have no one to share it with...no one to catch under the mistletoe...it still amazes me that my luck in boy-catching could be this bad.
but on a happier note, i DID go see Lord of the Rings yesterday, (YES, ALONE) and might i say it was the BEST movie i've seen in quite a long while...i thought you'd have to go pretty hard to beat harry potter, but bravo! and might i just say that there were quite a few cute sci-fi boys there, although none of them seemed to be very interrested in me....perhaps they were contemplating their next strategy for Magic the Gathering...which seems to be the biggest problem for those boys...at least in my experience...just ask heather. its a long and rather funny story. but anywho, the eye candy wasnt bad. and at least i wasnt the only loser there alone...ok maybe i was the only GIRL loser there alone, but i digress. one can't have it all i suppose. and i'd rather sit and enjoy the movie alone than be stuck there sharing popcorn with a guy who's shorter than me in a startrek tee shirt and a bad denim jacket who you know damn well has a sword at home...now if only i could share popcorn with a hot guy in a trenchcoat and combat boots with long hair tied neatly back in a pony tail who was about a foot or so taller than me and owns a sword...but they are a dying breed. and i am a picky woman. lol.
GOD things are looking grim for our hero.
