2001-12-23 - 8:07 p.m.
so tomorrows christmas eve...i can remember when i was a kid this was the best time of year...but there's so little magic left anymore.
those warm holiday moments are further and farther between, and it's become alot more about money and a lot less about the people you spend it on.
and i'll have to go and be with my family. and i love my family, but i dunno, its so weird now...i mean, my cousin beth, who used to be my partner in crime is engaged to glen, who's cool as hell, but i feel sorta left out. god i'm lame. i find myself looking at guys thinking if i could take them to christmas...lol. i know it sounds awful, but alas its true.
and as i drive around town on my way here or there, all i find myself thinking about is how i have no one to spend christmas with. and it never fails some stupid holiday song will come on...and it's all i need...bing crosby or nat king cole telling me how much greater things are supposed to be.
~J
