2002-02-07 - 9:26 p.m.
i'm coming home from school..and i laughed like i usually do at the commuters who get off the train and run for their cars...briefcases flying...and i walked to my car and turned it on, letting it warm up, knowing damn well i wasnt getting outta there any time soon...and as i pull into the unmoving line of cars headed for the only exit, it came on the radio...and for some reason, though i had heard it a million times before, this time it meant more, it shouted at me with a strange dort of sadness...and all i could do was listen, even though i would've normally belted it out right along with grace slick......
When the truth is found to be lies
and all the joy within you dies
don't you want somebody to love
don't you need somebody to love
wouldn't you love somebody to love
you better find somebody to love
When the garden flowers baby are dead yes
and your mind is full of red
don't you want somebody to love
don't you need somebody to love
wouldn't you love somebody to love
you better find somebody to love
your eyes, I say your eyes may look like his
but in your head baby I'm afraid you don't know where it is
don't you want somebody to love
don't you need somebody to love
wouldn't you love somebody to love
you better find somebody to love
tears are running ah running down your dress
and your friends baby they treat you like a guest
don't you want somebody to love
don't you need somebody to love
wouldn't you love somebody to love
you better find somebody to love.
and it resonated in my head...and i felt myself getting ready to cry...but i didnt. that rarely happens anymore over that. over being lonely. not lonely for people but lonely for a person...and i'm told that if i put it out of my mind and don't think about it that it will come...HA. that's impossible because it's everywhere...it's like being put in a room with nothing but an elephant, and then being told not to think about elephants.
~J
