2002-03-31 - 9:58 p.m.
ahhh easter...just another day to screw up. i dunno, lately i havent been feeling like myself. its like everythings spinning outta control. i've been forgetting to do stuff. which isnt like me really.
like today i went to my dad's side of the family and didnt stay long cuz i had to go see the moms and her side of the family, but i told my dad and grandmother i'd come back after dinner..and then dinner ran late and i sorta forgot..and then my cousin needed a ride back to the train station here in franklin, so i just came back here nad then realized i'd totally forgot to go back over, so i called them both, and they didnt seem to mind, but i still felt really bad..and THEN, i realized my friend patty was supposed to bring her boyfriend home and i REALLLY wanted to meet him. and it totally slipped my mind..by the time i called there she had already left.
so i'm an asshole.
because i was supposed to meet her for lunch the other day and that got screwed up too.
i am a loser.
i must be.
either that or i'm insensitive and irresponsible. but i tell people i'm gonna do things and then dont do it...and i REALLY dont mean to do it, i truly dont. it just happens. damnit. i suck.
i'm losing it.
~J
