2002-04-19 - 8:08 p.m.
today was just bad.
i woke up late...school sucked, the book i've been reading forever ended wicked shitty...i have no work done that needs to be done...i have no time or energy to do any of it, i have no money to do anything, even though it feels like all i do is fucking work...and i just want to be able to buy myself a few things every once in a while and not feel bad about it. not feel guilty because theres a stack of bills at home that arent getting paid on time.
i hate not being able to get even a little bit ahead.
and i hate that i have no boyfriend...i hate that no one thinks i'm cute.
i hate that i'm angry all the time and stupid shit bothers the hell outta me...
and most of all i hate hating everything.
so yeah. today sucked. just like every other fucking day. big surprise.
~J
