2004-07-08 - 6:18 a.m.
ok seriously...if i die dont let me make a scene.
i go to the doc today to try and figure out what the hell is wrong with me because fevers and pains in your side and back arent normal...
the moms is convinced its a urinary tract infection. i hope she's right. i'd hate to find out im dying right as life started to get good. lol.
but anywho...i did that art sale with heather the other week...and it rocked my werld...and between that and oprah...im feeling all sortsa motivated and shit. so ive been taking a few pictures here and there..may have a wedding to do in september sometime...and darnit, i hate my job at bj's more and more every day...which is a good sign that my artsy side is coming back...cuz you know youre siting three counting their money and theyre all like
"you cant do this you cant wear that and by the way that vacation you requested off over a month ago...well we have no one to cover you"
and yer thinking....
"thats all i can stands i cant stands no more."
"damn the man...damn you damn this office and damn the air conditioner repair man who is gonna take till december to get me some air in here"
so i look for new jobs...and i cant help but wonder if maybe its a sign...
if maybe this is all meant to happen. because i like to think im meant for more than this ...more than a low paying job at bj's in the cash office.
i like to think im meant for something a little more creative a little more dignified a little more...something.
so here i am programmed to be up at 10 minutes to six...its 6:35am now and im wide awake typing...its my day of but the boys gotta werk...so jamies gotta be up anyways.
moms taxi looks so damn good right now...ive got him thinking about it...he knows he wants it...it moves it runs...low mileage...
mini van.
lol.
thats the part ive gotta get him past...
perhaps i should threaten him...no van no booty!!
HA
no i think i'll take the route of...its cheap its reliable..and its that or the heel to toe express.
LOL
heathur you got my back on that one right?!
ok so everyone hope i dont die.
laterz~
~J
